second entry: headache

Hello again, just to give you some insight into how a cancer patient transforms minor bodily discomfort into a full-blown symptom of tumor recurrance: I have a hedache, And of course, as a consequence I am observing my left body half full of suspicion (my tumor was right, so the affected part of the body is left). And I feel dizzy. Is this it? Am I going to die? (well, some day certainly). Is there any twiching? am I loosing conciousness, do I have coordination difficulties? I wish there was a walk-in MRI to check on the status of my brain. Nonsense of course. I should work but this headache keeps me tied to the desk and I find myself writing this thing here. How ridiculous trying to be a scientist after a braintumor diagnosis. after having a golfball-size piece of tumor mass removed from my "most precious organ", or, as one could also say:MYSELF
As usual I am full of doubts.
But what can I do but to live/work on? stopping means let the tumor win. Unacceptable!!!
OK gotta do some work now.

CU