Ok, here it is the image that is always in my head (its from a publication by Stupp et al. N. Engl. J. Med. 2005, 352;10 good work, thank you guys, keep it up!) , who else but a cancer patient can have his future summarized in such a simple graph? I am moving along the "blue curve" (Radiotherapy plus temozolomide), currently at about 30 (32 to be exact) so there is still no safety (you can see the ugly bump downwards at about where I am now, at t=36 months, there is a SINGLE partient without tumor progression out of 287!!!!!!)(means I have no chance, virtually. next MRI will reveal that I am not Mr. Miracle-Man) To overcome being passive about this, I am drinking an amazonian herbal tea now: its made from an herb called "cat's claw" http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Uncaria_tomentosa. I am having a cup of this tea every evening now, not sure if it helps, but it keeps up the spirit of fighting, which is probably almost as important as the potential effect of the tea: The enemy doesn't sleep, even if it seems so at the moment. the other "regular treatment" I take is a big spoonfull of Flaxseed Oil from Trader Joe's every day, which is high in Gamma -Linoleic acid (GLA). The idea comes from the Ben Williams-book (of course). I love this book, thank you Ben Williams!!!!!!!! I can't tell you how important this book was for finding the right spirit!!!!!!
http://www.amazon.com/Surviving-Terminal-Cancer-Treatments-Oncologist/dp/1577491165/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/104-9226906-4144729?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1190920671&sr=1-1
He also took Accutane and Melatonin, both of which I don't want to take, mostly because: Accutane can affect the Cholesterol level and mine is high already, and Melatonin makes me too tired. I have some Alchemistic objects in my bedroom which I hope provide some beneficial protection. All to keep the psyche in a positive setting. Next MRI is in November and it will be very important, not sure what I will do if somenthing is moving, If so, for sure I will not climb the Researchers career path anymore. I am also not sure if I would go through therapy until the bitter end.
On another side of Life, and to end with a positive note: I am in love!!! But this is for another blog and definetly requres some more writing. Just so much: it has been threee weeks now and I am very happy. :-)
